Reality vs Illusion or perhaps NO vs...

Today is Sunday, and I have this burning yearning feeling to want to do something... yet, in order to do one must be. Everything happens from within then doesn't it just make sense to sit within, but why has it been made so difficult to sit within? Why has the creator made it a puzzle and complicated to find a path or a door to just be able to sit in the silence and come back with all answers and completely transform one's life as one desires it? This right here is my reality and my illusion...

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All over the place...

Today is Saturday and the kids still have not been able to celebrate Halloween :(  and frankly, I feel like I'm losing my enthusiasm for this holiday or whatever the right term is for it. People are going crazy for gas as gas restrictions have been put into place by the governor; all license plates that end in even numbers can only get gas on even numbered days and same holds true for odd numbered license plates... sigh, even though I know  everyone's working on trying to get back to normalcy; I don't think life is going to be the same. I guess we have to just take one day at a time and believe in the goodness that the higher power has placed in front of us  through this devastation. As December gets closer, I think peoples' energies are getting whacky as the media hypes up the end of the Mayan calendar... almost as if everyone just is expecting something bad to happen. They say a lot of the events that happened this past week, were reflected somewhat in the movie about the world coming to the end... I don't know anymore, all I know is that I keep wanting to do something and not knowing what it is, I really pray for some clarity to set in so that I can move ahead with my purpose and the gifts that I need to share...

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Happy November!

Can't believe only 2 more months left till the end of the year and a little over a month left until I turn 39! Yikes! The kids and I enjoyed a nice day just lounging, it was a good day. Tomorrow is the 2nd is Karva Chauth (North Indian ritual, whereby they woman if married fasts all day (with not even a drop of water until she see's the moon)for a long and successful life of her husband and if she is a young girl and/or unmarried she fasts all day until she sees the first star in the sky (no food or water); for the young unmarried girl it is to attain a handsome, successful and loving husband. Nobody asked me to do this; not my mother-n-law nor my own mother... it is something I picked up and learned on my own. I thought maybe my married life would get better and that my husband would revere me a bit more... lol (how immature) but hey it's become part of who I am. My husband has never really appreciated this from my part and had even requested that I not do it, but whether he accepts it or the Universe accepts it; I will continue to do it until I die... who knows, all I know it is something that has become a part of my life and I know I'm making some deposits somewhere, because nothing in this life ever goes not accounted for. Maybe, in my future life, I might just might attain the best husband and create the best love story that ever existed as I couldn't manage to do that in this lifetime :( My sister thinks that I should have my daughters keep a fast, so that at least they may attain a good, handsome, wealthy and loving husband... I did offer it to them, but the middle one doesn't resonate, my little one however, is all game. My middle child suggested since there are stars in the sky in the early morning, then she can just do it for an hour and be done with it! HA! she's already learning how to manipulate the superstition to her advantage ;) Good For Her !

The recovery of the hurricane's wrath continues...
So wonderful to witness and learn of the unity that is being created by folks helping each other out by extending their resources and/or warm food to those at a lesser advantage!

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October 31, 2012 (happy not halloween)

Today is Halloween, but due to Hurricane Sandy's visit to the east coast, Halloween has been postponed while everyone works on recovering, yet others still have no power and are displaced from their environments. I don't know if it's a blessing in disguise that my family and I are in a hotel in PA; we were in an area that didn't get too afflicted by the negative impacts of the hurricane. We have all been indoors for the past several days since the hurricane passed through. It's been really nice not to have to drive back and forth to Jersey everyday... It feels like times, they are a changing; I don't ever remember not celebrating Halloween on October 31st since I came into this glorious country twenty-eight years ago! Sometimes, it feels like time is moving super fast! Now don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm in denial of how everything needs to evolve and I also can't dismiss the fact that my physical body is also changing and transforming... but this other feeling is something different from the normal, you know, we're all just getting older and the planet is evolving... it's just different! I don't know how to describe the feeling right now, but I'm definitely on a quest to find out or at least make sense of it... (how? you maybe wanting to know... well, that comes from being in the silence aka MEDITATION (but, shhhh, I haven't been meditating this year at all, but now I have this daily blog and so I will have to stay accountable so that I can share with you my findings ;))That's all I have for today, thank you for taking a special moment or two out of your precious time to join me on my journey!

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Oh and btw, below is what I stumbled upon on FB and what a perfect reminder for me and YOU ;) In-Joy !